How did it started that I became locked up in chastitybelt?

Welcome at my diary about my experience to be locked up in a chastitybelt. I have been obsessed from a very young age by Chastitybelts. I really could not understand how these devices could be made. I was sure, and I still am, that only an extremely sadist figured the first chastitydevice out. A device which locks a person's sexual desires behind steel. Desires which are not able to stop so my logical conclusion was that it has to be an endless torture.

I have been always addicted to sex and this extreme torture whas something I really could not imagine how hard it could be. I imagined myself locked up in a chastitybelt and have the feeling I could not take it anymore, but I had to take it because I had no key. Forced to feel this endless torture until someone just simply turns the key what made this torture end.

A few months ago, without having experience to be locked up at all in a chastitybelt at all I have bought one of the most restrictive Chastitybelts around. The strongest quality Carrara chastitybelt. I read stories from people wearing it and i read that in this chastitybelt exvery sexual satisfaction is absolutely impossible. I bought this chastitybelt to be locked for the rest of my life and I had no idea how it felt like but the thought of this only made my sexual activity unstoppable. This was one of my biggest concerns too like you can understand.

My girlfriend was excited by this idea very much, but she is not really Dominant so I had control over the key every second. even when she holded the key. I made excuses a lot to free myself again because I did not hold it anymore and I felt a strong guilt which I could not deal with. It felt me very hard to experience this cruel torture. The chastitybelt was left unused in the bedroom for longer time until I spoke my girlfriend about it and the chastitybelt was too expensive for letting it unused and I needed discipline to hand over the control to my girlfriend totally and permanently.

I am locked up for 5 days now and I am going mad already, but I really wanted to feel how real chastity feels myself and I knew before it would not be easy at all. I even knew for sure that it would be an extreme cruel torture and it is already now but there is no return. I handed over the control of the keys totally to my girlfriend and I really don't know where they are. The belt stays locked and will be opened only for very short time for cleaning once about 3-4 weeks. The last reason why the chastitybelt would be opened is for having sex with my girlfriend without ever having the permission to have an orgasm. Sometimes she needs the real sexual experience, and she doesn't accept that my restriction becomes her restriction so I will sometimes taste a little freedom only for the moment to satisfy her orgasm and after that the chastitybelt will be directly be closed again. My experience is that after some days locked in this chastitybelt it takes some time before my orgasm comes up so if she releases me only at her climax part it's short enough for me to fight my orgasm before i can loose control. The rest of this period the belt is locked no matter what happens.

While wearing my unescapable chastitybelt, my frustrations are rising very hard and this blog is a short escape for me by sharing my deepest frustrations and phantasy's in this chastitybelt from now on.